I went one entire week without gambling. I had urges but I pushed through it and being pretty broke was also a factor.
However today I came into a little unexpected money. Nothing big. I didn’t think anything of it.
It’s almost like I just woke up from being blacked out. And again, like before, I’ve gambled away every dollar I had.
Guys it felt SO GOOD this week to not have to deal with the ups and downs of gambling and all that it brings.
No fear or self loathing. It was nice to feel somewhat normal.
I know this is a part of the process. It still hurts though. I feel like I can’t look my family in the eyes.
I pray I can make it even longer this next time.
Day 1 tomorrow.