I’ve officially made it a week without a gamble but the depression is at a new high. I got paid last weekend and all of it went to my credit card payments due today. Each and every one of them was the minimum payment. Now that I’ve self excluded I’m trying to think that “hey at least I can’t make it worse from gambling”. It helps ease the pain but it’s still there.
How am I supposed to live like this? Minimum payments month after month until I can get a new job which won’t be for at least two years. God, I hate myself so much for going into debt.